There was a time I was so convinced that I’ve had the worst heartbreaks compared to anyone else. I know that’s hugely exaggerated but well, I really felt that way then.
In those times of my life, nothing seemed appealing. I didn’t want to get out of bed, I didn’t want to eat or even take a bath and I didn’t want to think about anything. I just wanted to lay in bed staring at the ceiling above me and not thinking! I didn’t even want the Holy Spirit to say anything to me. It’s unbelievable how we sometimes try to turn our backs on who we need the most when things don’t go our way.
Then there was Elijah. He was a prophet who had to run into the wilderness because he had killed the prophets of Baal and the King’s wife Jezebel, swore to kill him just the same way he killed those prophets.
While in the wilderness, he thought there was no reason to continue living. He felt his life was totally worthless and he wanted God to strike him dead. He told God he already had it up to here and the only thing he wanted was his own death.
It should interest you to know how God responded. God responded by feeding him! He had an angel bring him food and water. Interesting, right? He ate and went back to sleep, waiting to die. But God quickened him to get up and get going. God was like, “Look here, you anointed and divinely ordained man, get up and climb that mountain because I’m not done with you.”
Elijah wished for death thinking it was all over for him but God was more interested in keeping him alive because He knew there were greater works ahead of him. He was going to recruit Elisha and eventually give a double portion of his anointing to him, God still needed him to deliver His mandates. He wasn’t going to die in the wilderness, but taken to heaven when his work is done, in grand style, by chariots of fire.
Back to me. I found the strength to eat again. Not just physical food, but spiritual food. The word of God. When I prayed, I allowed the ministrations of the Holy Spirit which I had previously tried to block out of my heart. I was renewed and revived. I found strength to step out in faith again.
Dying for you may mean giving up on your goals, on the promises of God for your life, not being excited about the future God told you about because you have experienced so many heartbreaks and disappointments or just a state of being confused about what to do because every time you thought you made a great decision, the grandness of the failure of your decisions always comes back hahahaha-ing in your face.
You are not going to give up. I know you’re disappointed, confused, scared and probably angry. But God is right here with you and he knows all these emotions you’re feeling. Your best days are ahead of you, not behind you. God surely wants to bring you to that expected future He promised but you have to let Him do that.
The truth is, the word of God and the Holy Spirit are your greatest companions in your time of despair. Opening up yourself to the word of God and the comfort only the Holy Spirit gives will help you get up again. You’ll find the strength to pray. Prayer will give you clearer vision on what to do. You must bring the word of God close to your heart in your challenging moments. This is where you find the strength to climb your mountains to victory. Those valleys are not your stopping point. You’re not done.
You’re a child of God and He has awesome plans for you. He won’t leave you all by yourself to starve to death or let you give up on yourself when there’s so much more to you. God always comes with His rescue plan because He loves you. Stop telling God to leave you alone and start asking Him to help you.
He knows that even if in fact you think you’ve gotten to the end of yourself, He’s actually and truthfully just starting with you. There’s more to you. You really don’t want to give up.